i remember

i remember
   the long nights of dreaming
          wishing upon a star
hoping and praying to
           all listening deities
and wishing stars
       for you to end
for the pain to end

not enough
not good enough
not clever enough
not funny enough
       not enough enough

and one day i realised i am free
            and left

it has been years
                but you still break my heart
at every turn

i am worth so much more than this